i keep thinking of things to blog and then i dont. basically my week goes something like this:
go to boston because i have to get off this campus and not work because the week was hard ----> come back sunday and realize that the weekend is gone and i've done no work but sucks to be me because i have to go to umass and watch a boring long movie in black and white ----> come back and realize that i must go to sleep but cant because i have a gatrillion emails to respond to ---> wake up early monday to run errands that werent done last week ----> go to class exhausted ----> run more errands ----->inhale lunch---->more exhausting---->inhale other food----> meetings more meetings and then somewhere in there bs some work ---->get no sleep---->more exhaustion in classes----> stop eating because there is not enough time---->go to class hungry and exhausted ----> more meetings----> and then once the week is over run away to boston and repeat the cycle.
so umm yea. i cant wait for break to get here because dammit i need a break. and some sleep.
in other news:
Britney Spears has completly lost her mind. And I love it.
http://everythingbritney.net/photos/brit-milkshakefun-sept26/index.html
http://www.thesmokinggun.com/archive/0924042_britney_spears_1.html
http://www.nerve.com/regulars/scanner/09_27_04/
and this is just sick. but something i might just apply for.
octubre 04, 2004
septiembre 28, 2004
naked and famous
I'm doing what all great thinkers do when they have a ridiculous amount of work that they need to do in an impossibly short period of time. I'm ignoring it.
School is not my friend this semester. I need a break. Like this girl.
Speaking of breaks, mystic pig thinks that I should move to Erie. I think that settles it.
oh and this is cute. and depressing. all at once.
School is not my friend this semester. I need a break. Like this girl.
Speaking of breaks, mystic pig thinks that I should move to Erie. I think that settles it.
The Mystic Pig | |
| and the mystic pig said: Go for it! Ask the Mystic Pig another question created by ixwin |
oh and this is cute. and depressing. all at once.
septiembre 25, 2004
i dont know where you went when you left me
My graduation gown sits in the back of my closet. Its awesome and terrifying all at the same time. It doesn't particularly help that I feel like I'm trying to do too much and don't quite know how I'm going to get all of it done. Like I have too many balls in the air and I'm trying not to drop them but I know some of them are going to have to go. Yea.
I can't sleep. Everytime I lay down I have a flood of thoughts drowing me. I've resorted to just curling up in a little ball and just hoping they'll go away. I need to just figure out how I'm going to keep myself sane this year. I dont really know though.
Its so frustrating though because things that should be easy arent. I cant register for my classes because I havent filled out a minor form, which is stupid because I've basically crammed 2 majors into my 3 years here, so why should I even worry about having a minor? ugh. and the stupid form is just sitting on the deans list and i've had the same conversation with the registrar's office at least 3 times now and they dont seem to get it.
and books cost money which i dont have. but i will have i just dont have right now. and i cant focus on anything because my brain just feels like its going to explode. and my friends are all stressed out, which makes absolutely nothing better.
and yea. i dont know how i'm going to get through this semester. but i need to figure it out soon because the time to hesitate is through. and i need to get on the ball and figure out what i'm doing. or start drinking heavily. or something.
I can't sleep. Everytime I lay down I have a flood of thoughts drowing me. I've resorted to just curling up in a little ball and just hoping they'll go away. I need to just figure out how I'm going to keep myself sane this year. I dont really know though.
Its so frustrating though because things that should be easy arent. I cant register for my classes because I havent filled out a minor form, which is stupid because I've basically crammed 2 majors into my 3 years here, so why should I even worry about having a minor? ugh. and the stupid form is just sitting on the deans list and i've had the same conversation with the registrar's office at least 3 times now and they dont seem to get it.
and books cost money which i dont have. but i will have i just dont have right now. and i cant focus on anything because my brain just feels like its going to explode. and my friends are all stressed out, which makes absolutely nothing better.
and yea. i dont know how i'm going to get through this semester. but i need to figure it out soon because the time to hesitate is through. and i need to get on the ball and figure out what i'm doing. or start drinking heavily. or something.
septiembre 18, 2004
my friends are all closet republicans.
so lasu took this quiz and I've seen it around before but never just sat down and took it to see where i stood. Basically I'm about as far left as you can go. Although will say that there were many questions where you had to say whether you agreed or disagreed with something and I knew that the reality of the situation was much more complicated. but eh. people like easy answers. So take the quiz and see where you stand.
Economic Left/Right: -8.12
Social Libertarian/Authoritarian: -6.15
Economic Left/Right: -8.12
Social Libertarian/Authoritarian: -6.15
septiembre 16, 2004
"speaking of queers..."
so school has started but this school year is different for a number of different reasons like: i'm taking 3 courses off campus (hampshire, umass, and smith), i now am the happy "owner" of an adorable honda civic, and of course i'm a senior.
excitement.
its basically all randomness as I wander from one campus to another being the girl thats a little too conservative/clean for Hampshire, a little too snotty for umass, and bringing up really random points at smith. My fear is that this is going to be the semester where I turn into "that girl" that everyone hates, since she's just so excited she can't keep her mouth shut. I really cant figure Smith out since it really should be exactly the same as Mount Holyoke but I'm finding that this is the class whose readings are the most interesting, but the discussion isnt that stimulating until the Mount Holyoke block begins to raise random points. so umm yea. be jealous of my workload because really my classes rock. while other people are learning about [insert boring engineering things] i get to read about sex, politics, and current events. Mostly is all about sex.
ah i'm also learning about plants since this is the semester where i'm fullfilling my lab science requirement by taking bio.145 "A Green World" which is my one class at Mount Holyoke. and its filled with first years. delicious. i would seriously hate this class except that the prof is soo excited about plants that you cant help but really get into it. Like for example did you know that flowering plants are highly evolved and that the entire reason for that display is for sex. And the coconut is the largest seed.
so umm yea. i have a car. it rocks. plants are cool. and i'm exhausted already and its only the second week. but i love it.
* Bush is drinking again. (Which could be a good thing since when he was an alcholic he wasnt off destroying the world, he was just partying and having a good time.)
* the south is fighting the good fight again, this time with alcohol.
* Ugh. That's all i'm going to say about that.
* I'm starting to think that the kids who drop out of college are the most successful.
excitement.
its basically all randomness as I wander from one campus to another being the girl thats a little too conservative/clean for Hampshire, a little too snotty for umass, and bringing up really random points at smith. My fear is that this is going to be the semester where I turn into "that girl" that everyone hates, since she's just so excited she can't keep her mouth shut. I really cant figure Smith out since it really should be exactly the same as Mount Holyoke but I'm finding that this is the class whose readings are the most interesting, but the discussion isnt that stimulating until the Mount Holyoke block begins to raise random points. so umm yea. be jealous of my workload because really my classes rock. while other people are learning about [insert boring engineering things] i get to read about sex, politics, and current events. Mostly is all about sex.
ah i'm also learning about plants since this is the semester where i'm fullfilling my lab science requirement by taking bio.145 "A Green World" which is my one class at Mount Holyoke. and its filled with first years. delicious. i would seriously hate this class except that the prof is soo excited about plants that you cant help but really get into it. Like for example did you know that flowering plants are highly evolved and that the entire reason for that display is for sex. And the coconut is the largest seed.
so umm yea. i have a car. it rocks. plants are cool. and i'm exhausted already and its only the second week. but i love it.
* Bush is drinking again. (Which could be a good thing since when he was an alcholic he wasnt off destroying the world, he was just partying and having a good time.)
* the south is fighting the good fight again, this time with alcohol.
* Ugh. That's all i'm going to say about that.
* I'm starting to think that the kids who drop out of college are the most successful.
septiembre 09, 2004
i am officially a senior
Today was convocation. which is one of our wonderful Mount Holyoke traditions where we welcome the incoming class while celebrating the final year of the seniors. This year it was our turn. We put on our caps and gowns, and put on some green (our class color). I basically thought I was going to bawl like a little girl the whole day. Thankfully I kept it together although I kept having these moments where I just wondered "How did we get here?"
The ceremony was indoors which was sad, but it was a great ceremony. The blessing was in multiple languages, and the faculty speech was amazing. And when we all stood up and sang our alma mater it was incredible. I love this school. More importantly though I love the women that I met along the way.
Okay as of right now I have one picture, but its in Ofoto. and I dont know how to give y'all a link. I figure if you really want to see it you'll figure it out.
The ceremony was indoors which was sad, but it was a great ceremony. The blessing was in multiple languages, and the faculty speech was amazing. And when we all stood up and sang our alma mater it was incredible. I love this school. More importantly though I love the women that I met along the way.
Okay as of right now I have one picture, but its in Ofoto. and I dont know how to give y'all a link. I figure if you really want to see it you'll figure it out.
septiembre 07, 2004
its not always rainbows and butterflies
back at moho. it feels good to be back. had a little drama with the moving in process, but now my stuffs all here. its a good thing i have a fabulous boyfriend if not i would have had a major panic attack. but i didnt. so my rooms good so far. i have my lanterns up and stuff. so thats good. i just got to get my paintings up on the walls, organize my clothes, do some laundry and get rid of the weird storage place smell, and then i'll be all set.
it keeps hitting me in waves that I'm a senior and somehow i have all this responsibility now. with being in charge of a building and all. its nice but scary. as i guess all good things are in life.
i think my favorite part of being a senior is being around the people that i've surrounded myself with. who are just the most amazing women i have ever met. if theres any reason to come to moho its for that.
Convocation is tomorrow. I bought an adorable outfit for it, thats comfortable and cute and that makes me happy. which is really what matters. if i find a scanner i'll show y'all the pictures.
so much stuff floating around in my head its not even funny. so much little stuff that needs to get done. eventually. before classes start on thrusday. eek.
it keeps hitting me in waves that I'm a senior and somehow i have all this responsibility now. with being in charge of a building and all. its nice but scary. as i guess all good things are in life.
i think my favorite part of being a senior is being around the people that i've surrounded myself with. who are just the most amazing women i have ever met. if theres any reason to come to moho its for that.
Convocation is tomorrow. I bought an adorable outfit for it, thats comfortable and cute and that makes me happy. which is really what matters. if i find a scanner i'll show y'all the pictures.
so much stuff floating around in my head its not even funny. so much little stuff that needs to get done. eventually. before classes start on thrusday. eek.
agosto 21, 2004
quickie
so last night was pure randomness with brent. we watched Garden State (i liked it. you should watch it. but it also made me feel very much like "i could have written that") then we proceeded to drive around downtown, check mail, stuff like that. fairly typical. then both of us needed to go to the restroom. so since we were in the Rice University area we were like "oh lets go there." this is where the evening turned memorable. basic life lessons were learned like dont touch anything at Rice.
yea we parked at the garage and then wandered around some management building. i noticed a door that was ajar and i tried to open it. which is when the alarm started blarring from the building. so of course i ran. and when i stopped i looked around and realized that brent was no where to be found. yea. i definately freaked out when i saw a string of ambulances, fire trucks, and police cars cruising by me. so i casually walked away like nothing had happened. still no brent. so i walked down some stairs and back into the parking garage and found brent's car when i sense that i'm not alone and turn around and there's brent. we then proceeded to wander around rice some more except that i refused to touch anything since i was trying my hardest to avoid being arrested in the last 5 days before i head back to moho.
eventually we drove over to the stadium and brent nicely asked some man to let us use their restrooms which is how i received a tiny tour of the Rice football lockers. if we had been on a scavenger hunt we would have totally won.
we drove around some more and by the very end of the night we were in Fort Bend county on a desolate road surrounded by pickup trucks and mosquitos. and when your alone in the car with a black man and you look like a white woman there's possibly no worse place to be at 11ish at night. so we turned around and went home.
*this is a good idea.
yea we parked at the garage and then wandered around some management building. i noticed a door that was ajar and i tried to open it. which is when the alarm started blarring from the building. so of course i ran. and when i stopped i looked around and realized that brent was no where to be found. yea. i definately freaked out when i saw a string of ambulances, fire trucks, and police cars cruising by me. so i casually walked away like nothing had happened. still no brent. so i walked down some stairs and back into the parking garage and found brent's car when i sense that i'm not alone and turn around and there's brent. we then proceeded to wander around rice some more except that i refused to touch anything since i was trying my hardest to avoid being arrested in the last 5 days before i head back to moho.
eventually we drove over to the stadium and brent nicely asked some man to let us use their restrooms which is how i received a tiny tour of the Rice football lockers. if we had been on a scavenger hunt we would have totally won.
we drove around some more and by the very end of the night we were in Fort Bend county on a desolate road surrounded by pickup trucks and mosquitos. and when your alone in the car with a black man and you look like a white woman there's possibly no worse place to be at 11ish at night. so we turned around and went home.
*this is a good idea.
agosto 20, 2004
vacationing
okay this is just too cute and kinda horrific so i figured i'd share:
While in line at the bank one afternoon, my toddler decided to release some pent-up energy and ran amok. I was finally able to grab hold of her after receiving looks of disgust and annoyance from other patrons.
I told her that if she did not start behaving "right now" she would be punished. To my horror, she looked me in the eye and said in a voice just as threatening, "If you don't let me go right now, I will tell Grandma that I saw you kissing Daddy's pee-pee last night!" The silence was deafening after this enlightening exchange. Even the tellers stopped what they were doing. I mustered up the last of my dignity and walked out of thebank with my daughter in tow. The last thing I heard when the door closed behind me were screams of laughter.
While in line at the bank one afternoon, my toddler decided to release some pent-up energy and ran amok. I was finally able to grab hold of her after receiving looks of disgust and annoyance from other patrons.
I told her that if she did not start behaving "right now" she would be punished. To my horror, she looked me in the eye and said in a voice just as threatening, "If you don't let me go right now, I will tell Grandma that I saw you kissing Daddy's pee-pee last night!" The silence was deafening after this enlightening exchange. Even the tellers stopped what they were doing. I mustered up the last of my dignity and walked out of thebank with my daughter in tow. The last thing I heard when the door closed behind me were screams of laughter.
agosto 18, 2004
bwa-ha-ha
its been a really fabulous week. random but fabulous.
my boy visited and it was most wonderful. we got to go to Chacos which seriously puts crack in their tortillas. their delicious. and we watched the Olympics. and had dinner with my dad and my brother. basically when i retell it sounds really boring but it was the most fun stress-free time i've had all summer.
then i had my last 2 days at work. which were good. i had a really good time working for them this summer and I learned a ton of stuff and the people there were really nice to me. so all is good.
and then what else. leaving for MA in less than a week. still not completly sure how this plan is going to work and how i'm going to get there, but i'm ready to go back. i miss having my own room where I can watch my mindless tv without being judged for my addiction to bad tv. a little stressed since my folks havent paid my tuition bill in full so I cant register for classes, which doesnt matter since I havent filled out a minor form so I cant register for classes since I havent officially changed my major yet since I'm a really gigantimous slacker when I want to be. so yea.
oh and my mom is buying a house. in san antonio. sketch.
some links to keep you busy:
*i dont find her that attractive but eh different strokes for different folks. Ah the whole thing with her kind of makes me want to go annonymous since I know I'd have a bunch of more interesting things to vent about. but then I wouldnt give y'all the link because that would kill the annonymous bit.
*this week's news
*glad to know all is well in the world again
*and this is just cute
my boy visited and it was most wonderful. we got to go to Chacos which seriously puts crack in their tortillas. their delicious. and we watched the Olympics. and had dinner with my dad and my brother. basically when i retell it sounds really boring but it was the most fun stress-free time i've had all summer.
then i had my last 2 days at work. which were good. i had a really good time working for them this summer and I learned a ton of stuff and the people there were really nice to me. so all is good.
and then what else. leaving for MA in less than a week. still not completly sure how this plan is going to work and how i'm going to get there, but i'm ready to go back. i miss having my own room where I can watch my mindless tv without being judged for my addiction to bad tv. a little stressed since my folks havent paid my tuition bill in full so I cant register for classes, which doesnt matter since I havent filled out a minor form so I cant register for classes since I havent officially changed my major yet since I'm a really gigantimous slacker when I want to be. so yea.
oh and my mom is buying a house. in san antonio. sketch.
some links to keep you busy:
*i dont find her that attractive but eh different strokes for different folks. Ah the whole thing with her kind of makes me want to go annonymous since I know I'd have a bunch of more interesting things to vent about. but then I wouldnt give y'all the link because that would kill the annonymous bit.
*this week's news
*glad to know all is well in the world again
*and this is just cute
agosto 11, 2004
excitement.
so um. my parents are moving to San Antonio.
my boyfriend is going to be living in Erie, PA.
i dont want to live in pennsylvania. or in san antonio.
lovely.
my boyfriend is going to be living in Erie, PA.
i dont want to live in pennsylvania. or in san antonio.
lovely.
agosto 07, 2004
save a horse. ride a cowboy.
there are many things that i love about Houston. and then there is an even larger number of things that I loathe about Houston. or maybe their just general loathings. for example:
**men leering at me: i have no problem with men looking at me. i have a problem with them leering and/or staring. once they start trying to talk to me and invade my personal space i have to just restrain myself from hurting them. i'm personally just to the point where i wish they would try something because i'd kick their ass. and then laugh. and point.
**traffic: i understand theres a lot of ppl in houston. i get it. but why it takes me 30-45 minutes to go 2 blocks is beyond me. like when theres an accident or something it makes sense. but everyday? ridiculous. whats sad is i've gotten to the point where if i get home from work in 45 minutes i'm like "oh wow that was quick" which is sick because it should take like 20 minutes since its all freeway to get there.
**idiots who cant drive: now i'm not the best driver in the world. i get it. i manage to hurt other people's cars when i'm walking (not a joke i completly broke some guys mirror with my elbow the other day). but its gotten to the point where i completly understand road range now. like when some idiot is driving in front of me on the freeway going like 45 (on the freeway) i have to restrain myself from slamming my car into theirs. or from flicking them off. which is why its a good thing i dont have a gun in my car.
**Bush stickers on hummers. or bmws. or Ford F150s: yea. I kinda wish i carried a carton of eggs with me so i could just egg peoples cars. but then i remind myself that everyone has a right to be an idiot. and to their own idiotic opinion. and yet still theres a part of me that wants to slash their tires. except that would only cement them in their own idiotic opinion. and then what.
so umm yea. venting makes things better. oh and i got a cellphone. even though i kinda hate cell phones. they annoy me and i think their rude and obnoxious. i like how i get things that i dont really want, but things that i do want i dont get. lovely.
and this might just be the most hillarious one yet. so read it. love it. loathe it. either one.
**men leering at me: i have no problem with men looking at me. i have a problem with them leering and/or staring. once they start trying to talk to me and invade my personal space i have to just restrain myself from hurting them. i'm personally just to the point where i wish they would try something because i'd kick their ass. and then laugh. and point.
**traffic: i understand theres a lot of ppl in houston. i get it. but why it takes me 30-45 minutes to go 2 blocks is beyond me. like when theres an accident or something it makes sense. but everyday? ridiculous. whats sad is i've gotten to the point where if i get home from work in 45 minutes i'm like "oh wow that was quick" which is sick because it should take like 20 minutes since its all freeway to get there.
**idiots who cant drive: now i'm not the best driver in the world. i get it. i manage to hurt other people's cars when i'm walking (not a joke i completly broke some guys mirror with my elbow the other day). but its gotten to the point where i completly understand road range now. like when some idiot is driving in front of me on the freeway going like 45 (on the freeway) i have to restrain myself from slamming my car into theirs. or from flicking them off. which is why its a good thing i dont have a gun in my car.
**Bush stickers on hummers. or bmws. or Ford F150s: yea. I kinda wish i carried a carton of eggs with me so i could just egg peoples cars. but then i remind myself that everyone has a right to be an idiot. and to their own idiotic opinion. and yet still theres a part of me that wants to slash their tires. except that would only cement them in their own idiotic opinion. and then what.
so umm yea. venting makes things better. oh and i got a cellphone. even though i kinda hate cell phones. they annoy me and i think their rude and obnoxious. i like how i get things that i dont really want, but things that i do want i dont get. lovely.
and this might just be the most hillarious one yet. so read it. love it. loathe it. either one.
agosto 01, 2004
random ramblings
This marked my first week at work where I was the primary person in the office handling all the responsibilites. I even got a key, but with that key came the not so fun aspect of having to be into work by 9am especially since I'm not a morning person. And when you add in at least a half hour commute (when traffic is flowing incredibly well) then you have a situation when you get home and your just exhausted. but even with the exhausting I've had a lot of good things happen this week, like I found Pocky (the delicious Japanese snack)in the Randalls by my house. I like how I can buy Japanese goodies, Mexican cheese, Colombian malta(kinda rootbeer-ish soda), Kosher salt, and American bread at my neighboorhood store. The joys of living in a gigantic city. Although the traffic sucks enough ass to make me never want to live here permanently. Sad. but eh.
In other news my daddy is officially moving to San Antonio. The end of an era. Its been in the works for a while now, and after my daddy's heart scare it seemed like it might not happen but now it is happening my dad just needs to say when he's ready to go. Its sad but I've had enough time to process it so that it doesnt sting so bad. I've talked my mom into taking his phone number so I dont lose the one time thats been constant in my life since I moved here. Theres something insanely comforting about knowing that people that knew me in 6th grade can still randomly call me using the same number.
And what else. I found this great Argentinian bakery and deli by my house. If i went to college here thats where I would live reading my books and writing my papers. I wish we had a place like that in South Hadley. I've noticed that when ppl ask me were I go to school I'm really excited to tell them all about it. I figure that I'll educate the world about the wonders of Moho one person at a time.
My job is going ultra well since I pick up things insanely quickly. I can now process loan applications all by myself which means that I can review a credit report, gauge financial capacity, and evaluate the monetary worth of collateral all by myself. I can also close a loan application by myself too. Except ppl sometimes come in and since I look so young they assume that their loans are just too complicated for me. Which is stupid because trained monkeys could do the work that these ppl do. Except thats not nice to tell ppl so I've resisted the urge to be rude and just tell ppl that I understand their loan is important and that I've been trained very well. What I want to do is put them in their place and tell them that I'm smarter and better educated than they can ever hope to be, but thats not really the kind of attitude you can take when you work in a non-profit. Thus my conundrum in wanting to help people but really hating people sometimes. Eh. such is life.
My brother is coming back to Texas today. Which means I no longer have my parents all to myself so I have to share and I'm not so good at sharing so we'll see how this all plays out. But the good news is I'm back at Moho in 26 days. I'm unsure how I'm getting there and I have no idea what my room looks like. Although I know its huge. Which is good since I like huge.
I figure I'll spend my time home as best I can. Continuing to eat yummy food and learning how to cook "traditional" meals. and then before I know it I shall be back with my girls. ahh such excitement. The idea that I'm a senior keeps hitting me at random times, like on the drive home or in the supermarket. Eeek! It'll be okay though. I hope.
In other news my daddy is officially moving to San Antonio. The end of an era. Its been in the works for a while now, and after my daddy's heart scare it seemed like it might not happen but now it is happening my dad just needs to say when he's ready to go. Its sad but I've had enough time to process it so that it doesnt sting so bad. I've talked my mom into taking his phone number so I dont lose the one time thats been constant in my life since I moved here. Theres something insanely comforting about knowing that people that knew me in 6th grade can still randomly call me using the same number.
And what else. I found this great Argentinian bakery and deli by my house. If i went to college here thats where I would live reading my books and writing my papers. I wish we had a place like that in South Hadley. I've noticed that when ppl ask me were I go to school I'm really excited to tell them all about it. I figure that I'll educate the world about the wonders of Moho one person at a time.
My job is going ultra well since I pick up things insanely quickly. I can now process loan applications all by myself which means that I can review a credit report, gauge financial capacity, and evaluate the monetary worth of collateral all by myself. I can also close a loan application by myself too. Except ppl sometimes come in and since I look so young they assume that their loans are just too complicated for me. Which is stupid because trained monkeys could do the work that these ppl do. Except thats not nice to tell ppl so I've resisted the urge to be rude and just tell ppl that I understand their loan is important and that I've been trained very well. What I want to do is put them in their place and tell them that I'm smarter and better educated than they can ever hope to be, but thats not really the kind of attitude you can take when you work in a non-profit. Thus my conundrum in wanting to help people but really hating people sometimes. Eh. such is life.
My brother is coming back to Texas today. Which means I no longer have my parents all to myself so I have to share and I'm not so good at sharing so we'll see how this all plays out. But the good news is I'm back at Moho in 26 days. I'm unsure how I'm getting there and I have no idea what my room looks like. Although I know its huge. Which is good since I like huge.
I figure I'll spend my time home as best I can. Continuing to eat yummy food and learning how to cook "traditional" meals. and then before I know it I shall be back with my girls. ahh such excitement. The idea that I'm a senior keeps hitting me at random times, like on the drive home or in the supermarket. Eeek! It'll be okay though. I hope.
julio 25, 2004
i buy alcohol because i can
Thanks to all of y'all that sent birthday wishes. I managed to have myself a good time. I ordered a fruity peach drink and had a nice big steak. So good food, good drinks, good time.
I was actually not carded though, which is a bit disappointing. I keep wanting someone to card me, but its just not happening yet. I figure I'll just keep buying alchol until someone decides to card me. I really just want someone to see my id, because I'm finally 21, so I feel like I should buy alcohol, because I can. Not really because I want to drink, but because I can. Like I went to Fiesta with my mom and we had just finished buying seafood, and I was standing there waiting for her to pick out her wine, and I was just like I'm going to buy some delicious malt beverage because I can. Not really because I want one, but because I can. Its a good feeling, and so silly really.
so umm yea, soooo excited about being a senior. Mucha anticipacion.
Ahh I also got these beautiful flowers from andy, so thanks for the flowers monkey their lovely. And thanks for the letter Jess it made my day!
alright heres a quiz, i did a bunch of different combinations, and this one was my favorite.
Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com
oh and an interesting essay in case you have the time.
I was actually not carded though, which is a bit disappointing. I keep wanting someone to card me, but its just not happening yet. I figure I'll just keep buying alchol until someone decides to card me. I really just want someone to see my id, because I'm finally 21, so I feel like I should buy alcohol, because I can. Not really because I want to drink, but because I can. Like I went to Fiesta with my mom and we had just finished buying seafood, and I was standing there waiting for her to pick out her wine, and I was just like I'm going to buy some delicious malt beverage because I can. Not really because I want one, but because I can. Its a good feeling, and so silly really.
so umm yea, soooo excited about being a senior. Mucha anticipacion.
Ahh I also got these beautiful flowers from andy, so thanks for the flowers monkey their lovely. And thanks for the letter Jess it made my day!
alright heres a quiz, i did a bunch of different combinations, and this one was my favorite.
| How to make a Jessica |
| Ingredients: 1 part competetiveness 5 parts ambition 1 part joy |
| Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Serve with a slice of sadness and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
Personality cocktail
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oh and an interesting essay in case you have the time.
julio 17, 2004
Dear Senior,
I received my first letter from my school addressed to me as a senior. I almost shed a tear. I'm so ready to go back to school and have my jess across the hall from me, my yara across the lake from me, and ev right in the middle. excitement. thinking about commencement and what i'm going to wear. i need to start shopping for green outfits since thats our class color. excitement.
i already found the most perfect dress for senior ball. so i need a laurel parade dress in white, i was thinking about a white pant suit, because i could rock a white pant suit but i dont know i might just want to wear a cute white dress. ahh decisions. and lets see what else. oh i received my graduation requirements so now i know what stands between me and a diploma (2 PE credits and a lab science). and thats school stuff.
i've been working at ACCION Texas as an intern and that's been going really well. There's only 2 people in the office besisdes me so I get to do alot of stuff. So I'm learning a ton and I think I'm getting a good sense of what I want to do and not do once I graduate. I just need to be busy if not I get really bored and start feeling like i'm wasting my time. which isnt cool. but umm yea. it fits into my grander plan of working for ACCION international, which fits into my even grander plan of living in Colombia. or Venezuela if they decide to stabilize themselves. which i dont think is going to happen. but umm yea. thats all.
excited about turning 21 finally. now i get to go out with the big kids and not have to stay home like a dork, unless of course i feel like staying home like a dork in which case thats what i'll be doing.
and some links to keep you busy:
*at least crazy liberals have fun.
*this is just too cute
* another new favorite thing
i already found the most perfect dress for senior ball. so i need a laurel parade dress in white, i was thinking about a white pant suit, because i could rock a white pant suit but i dont know i might just want to wear a cute white dress. ahh decisions. and lets see what else. oh i received my graduation requirements so now i know what stands between me and a diploma (2 PE credits and a lab science). and thats school stuff.
i've been working at ACCION Texas as an intern and that's been going really well. There's only 2 people in the office besisdes me so I get to do alot of stuff. So I'm learning a ton and I think I'm getting a good sense of what I want to do and not do once I graduate. I just need to be busy if not I get really bored and start feeling like i'm wasting my time. which isnt cool. but umm yea. it fits into my grander plan of working for ACCION international, which fits into my even grander plan of living in Colombia. or Venezuela if they decide to stabilize themselves. which i dont think is going to happen. but umm yea. thats all.
excited about turning 21 finally. now i get to go out with the big kids and not have to stay home like a dork, unless of course i feel like staying home like a dork in which case thats what i'll be doing.
and some links to keep you busy:
*at least crazy liberals have fun.
*this is just too cute
* another new favorite thing
junio 09, 2004
minesweeper owns me
ah the hazy days of summer when its completly socially acceptable to wake up in the afternoon, answer the phone, and then go back to sleep. except that this summer my brain is refusing to shut off, which makes it hard to enjoy doing absolutely nothing when your brain craves stimulating conversation and good books. unfortunately my summer book is still in the mail on its way over here and so in the meantime i have nothing to read, which isnt so pleasant. my attempts to go into the public library and read something else have been ruined by the fact that i'm now spoiled, and everytime i enter a public library i just think about how quaint it is and how this isnt a real library especially since all of my favorite authors are missing from their collections. and then i just think to myself "how is this a real library if irene klepfisz isnt included in it?" so then i just back away and leave the library sad about my lack of good summer reading.
but yea, so far this summer i've started the process of figuring out what i'm going to do this summer, and yea its late but its better than never starting at all. i sent my resume out to the one non-profit that seems to combine everything i love and do it well, but the problem is that they dont have a specific internship in Houston although they are offering two in San Antonio where the Texas branch of the nonprofit is based. personally i love them so much that if it came to it i would move to san antonio just to work for them, but hopefully they'll figure something out for me to do here in Houston. hopefully.
and what else. i'll keep it short and just leave y'all with things to go through on your own time:
*everything you ever wanted to know about intersexed births
*the stupidity of the bushes never ceases to amaze me (melissa, you should read this)
and a quiz just to keep things interesting:
I am an Intellectual
Which America Hating Minority Are You?
Take More Robert & Tim Quizzes
Watch Robert & Tim Cartoons
but yea, so far this summer i've started the process of figuring out what i'm going to do this summer, and yea its late but its better than never starting at all. i sent my resume out to the one non-profit that seems to combine everything i love and do it well, but the problem is that they dont have a specific internship in Houston although they are offering two in San Antonio where the Texas branch of the nonprofit is based. personally i love them so much that if it came to it i would move to san antonio just to work for them, but hopefully they'll figure something out for me to do here in Houston. hopefully.
and what else. i'll keep it short and just leave y'all with things to go through on your own time:
*everything you ever wanted to know about intersexed births
*the stupidity of the bushes never ceases to amaze me (melissa, you should read this)
and a quiz just to keep things interesting:
I am an Intellectual
Which America Hating Minority Are You?
Take More Robert & Tim Quizzes
Watch Robert & Tim Cartoons
junio 06, 2004
i need a new tribe
alright, so brent told me to post and since he just drove me around houston for like a good couple of hours and kept me entertained i'm going to humor him. but really i have nothing to post. its basically a ditto to what he posted. just basically that i'm bored, been bored since i got home and have started trying to figure out what i'm going to do once i graduate next may. its a little scary, but not so scary because i know how i want things to go down i just have to figure out how the pieces will fall.
but umm yea. basically the grass is always better on the other side. and right now i wish i was with my wonderful women back at moho where i can go on a rant about anything really and not have it be brushed off. i just have come to realize that i'm different. and sometimes this just makes it hard to relate to other ppl because my motivation in life is very different and i could care less about fancy cars and i think theory is facinating. so yea. i'm all over the place right now. i'm going to take the summer to figure things out with my man, my life, learn some portuguise, write some stories down, study for the gre's, volunteer at planned parenthood, and work for a nonprofit. and paint.
oh and i spent 13hrs with a 3 year old and it made me rethink having children. and it wore me out completly. and i probably never want to do that again. so yea. well see how this summer turns out. but i strangely want it to go slowly so i can think everything over and be ready for senior year, which i think is going to rule. i just need to swash some drama and get my classes in order for the year so that it'll work out.
but umm yea. basically the grass is always better on the other side. and right now i wish i was with my wonderful women back at moho where i can go on a rant about anything really and not have it be brushed off. i just have come to realize that i'm different. and sometimes this just makes it hard to relate to other ppl because my motivation in life is very different and i could care less about fancy cars and i think theory is facinating. so yea. i'm all over the place right now. i'm going to take the summer to figure things out with my man, my life, learn some portuguise, write some stories down, study for the gre's, volunteer at planned parenthood, and work for a nonprofit. and paint.
oh and i spent 13hrs with a 3 year old and it made me rethink having children. and it wore me out completly. and i probably never want to do that again. so yea. well see how this summer turns out. but i strangely want it to go slowly so i can think everything over and be ready for senior year, which i think is going to rule. i just need to swash some drama and get my classes in order for the year so that it'll work out.
mayo 13, 2004
wow
in the last 24hrs I have written 3 spanish papers and one 15pg econ paper. thats ridiculous, especially considering that I did the research the night of. ahh i should always pick topics that i can easily write, then my life will be much easier. but yea, my brain is shutting down, although i dont know why since i slept for 7 hrs, but yea it doesnt want to be awake right now. but thats too bad because i need to pack up my room and put everything into storage, which means that once again i will be saying goodbye to my computer for the summer and dealing with life without aim or checking my email every five minutes. eh. such is life. tomorrow if all goes well i shall be on my way to boston and enjoying living in an actual city for a few days.
i really should of hooked up my computer so that I wouldnt have this problem anymore...oh well. all thats left to do is just pack, throw things away, and one more meeting with my spanish profs. which i think will go really well.
i hate packing, even though i'm good at it because theres always this feeling that what was your home for a year is now over, and for some reason even though this semester was long i'm going to miss this room. but next year my room is bigger and better, and jess shall be living across the hall from me so i'll have someone to bother all the time. ::sigh::
alright kiddos i have to pack.
i really should of hooked up my computer so that I wouldnt have this problem anymore...oh well. all thats left to do is just pack, throw things away, and one more meeting with my spanish profs. which i think will go really well.
i hate packing, even though i'm good at it because theres always this feeling that what was your home for a year is now over, and for some reason even though this semester was long i'm going to miss this room. but next year my room is bigger and better, and jess shall be living across the hall from me so i'll have someone to bother all the time. ::sigh::
alright kiddos i have to pack.
mayo 12, 2004
de|vel|op: vt. to make fuller, bigger, better
this has been an amazing semester. not always the most pleasant but I learned so much. and not in the hollow way where you learn how to find the speed of a car moving down a cliff, but in this astonishing way where you learn how to live your life, where you grow as a human being. i love this feeling. it reminds me of being five (and oh soo cute) and just walking around in constant awe of the world around me. somewhere along the line i lost that, i think it had everything to do with school and life getting in the way of things. school isn't very conducive to people learning to think for themselves, its more about teaching how to be a sheep and regurgitate what the teacher preaches as truth. why didn't anyone ever bother telling me that there is no such thing? i would have gotten sooo much more out of school that way.
the funny thing about this semester is that i've learned the basics: how to read, write, and listen. and now, even trying to explain that it sounds silly. "oh jes of course you know how to read, everyone knows that." do you really know how to read? are we really taught that? because reading isn't about just superficially reading the words, its about connecting fully with the text and the author, knowing who they're in conversation with, and what brought them to create this. this is how you read. and it takes forever, and its a bitch to do, but once you've done it the taste lingers in your mouth and you're hooked.
i think the most important thing i've learned this semester is to listen. like truly listen to other people, and not just like in one ear and out the other, but listen. everyone has something amazing to say. last night during my umass class (which lasted 5 hours) i heard some of the most beautiful, amazing, engaging, powerful, and intelligent work that i've ever heard in my life. it was a privilege. and this amazing work was coming from umass kids who i typically would have just shrugged off because they dont speak up in class and worry more about their gucci sunglasses than the reading. but the class was just incredible. and it felt so amazing to read my work, and show my paintings, and just breathe.
i thought i was going to have a panic attack before i went up there. the entire day i was having these horrible pangs of "what am i doing sharing these things with people?" i told a class of about 30 women things that i dont tell people. things that y'all dont even know about me. and it was amazing. for the first time in my life, i really took a risk and put myself out there, and it rocked. i feel alive. like truly alive. but most importantly i learned to let go of the outcome. you don't like what i have to say? thats too damn bad. i don't need you to like me. i'm a grown ass woman. and what i want to do with my life is write.
ps. this is fabulous. consider it your required reading for the night.
the funny thing about this semester is that i've learned the basics: how to read, write, and listen. and now, even trying to explain that it sounds silly. "oh jes of course you know how to read, everyone knows that." do you really know how to read? are we really taught that? because reading isn't about just superficially reading the words, its about connecting fully with the text and the author, knowing who they're in conversation with, and what brought them to create this. this is how you read. and it takes forever, and its a bitch to do, but once you've done it the taste lingers in your mouth and you're hooked.
i think the most important thing i've learned this semester is to listen. like truly listen to other people, and not just like in one ear and out the other, but listen. everyone has something amazing to say. last night during my umass class (which lasted 5 hours) i heard some of the most beautiful, amazing, engaging, powerful, and intelligent work that i've ever heard in my life. it was a privilege. and this amazing work was coming from umass kids who i typically would have just shrugged off because they dont speak up in class and worry more about their gucci sunglasses than the reading. but the class was just incredible. and it felt so amazing to read my work, and show my paintings, and just breathe.
i thought i was going to have a panic attack before i went up there. the entire day i was having these horrible pangs of "what am i doing sharing these things with people?" i told a class of about 30 women things that i dont tell people. things that y'all dont even know about me. and it was amazing. for the first time in my life, i really took a risk and put myself out there, and it rocked. i feel alive. like truly alive. but most importantly i learned to let go of the outcome. you don't like what i have to say? thats too damn bad. i don't need you to like me. i'm a grown ass woman. and what i want to do with my life is write.
ps. this is fabulous. consider it your required reading for the night.
mayo 10, 2004
dropped my ankle down
okay so i'm lisening to Freek-a-leek and i realized that in that entire lines of names there aren't any jessicas and then i realized that i've never met a black woman named Jessica. which is pretty interesting. well actually i knew one in middle school but she was creole so she was part french. probably one of the most attractive people i've ever met in my life.
yea i'm on crack, and its okay.
so my finals period has just taken a swing towards the worst when i realized that the paper for econ that i thought was only 5 pages is really *15* pages. beautiful. now the question now becomes, where did this 5 page idea come from? ugh. so i'm not sleeping for the rest of the week it seems. or maybe i just pull 15 pages straight out of my ass and get some sleep. i like how sleep is my new goal.
plus somewhere in there i have take my stuff to the storage place, write spanish papers (about 5), and not lose my sanity. although i may have already lost it long ago.
on a positive note i like the stuff that i've written for my umass class. i think its actually quality stuff. although i'm a bit frightened of reading it in front of the class because thats like being naked in front of people, and while nudity is great when it involves sunny parisian beaches, its not so cool when it involves possible academic humiliation. so i'll let you know how that goes tonight.
yea i'm on crack, and its okay.
so my finals period has just taken a swing towards the worst when i realized that the paper for econ that i thought was only 5 pages is really *15* pages. beautiful. now the question now becomes, where did this 5 page idea come from? ugh. so i'm not sleeping for the rest of the week it seems. or maybe i just pull 15 pages straight out of my ass and get some sleep. i like how sleep is my new goal.
plus somewhere in there i have take my stuff to the storage place, write spanish papers (about 5), and not lose my sanity. although i may have already lost it long ago.
on a positive note i like the stuff that i've written for my umass class. i think its actually quality stuff. although i'm a bit frightened of reading it in front of the class because thats like being naked in front of people, and while nudity is great when it involves sunny parisian beaches, its not so cool when it involves possible academic humiliation. so i'll let you know how that goes tonight.
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