i'm back at school. My room is a mess, but thats really to be expected. I just want to get organized and fix things in my brain so that i'm happier to be here than i currently am. This weather is ridiculous. I wasnt meant to live my life in the cold, i was meant to live it in tiny miniskirts and 70degree weather. I'm gonna change some stuff on the site. A lot of stuff, actually. Put some titles up, have a better way to search thru the history, things like that. Take that silly banner down. Change the colors. I'm feeling very pink right now. I"m very much looking foward to valentine's day and to wearing my gorgeous heels. I love shoes.

I miss my mom. This semester is going to be hard if I dont get my head straight. I'd so much rather be in my mom's appartment, laying on her bed and looking up at the canopy we put up and feeling like a princess...going to the fridge to get some yogurt and watching spanish telenovelas until i was just furious with Migelangelo and how he could ever leave Soledad for that bitch, and then on top of that believe that she would kill her like that. The idiot. I need to be on top of my game this semester. Be a better SA, have some sort of vague social life. Not miss my parents. I miss my boy though. I miss him a bunch. I have no breaks besisdes spring break this semester, so its going to be rough getting time to see him. I need a car. Or better put I want a car for my mental health at this school. I'm excited of seeing Ms.Williams this weekend. She's such an amazing girl I cant wait to see her. Thats a sure fire way to make me feel better.

But yea. I need to figuare out how to enjoy winter, bc I cant control the weather so I'm going to have to make the best of it. Theres so much I want to do. Like finding the perfect white bikini and becoming a beach bum during spring break. I want to see my brother more, he's such a funny little man and there's so much i dont know about him. Thats something I learned this break, I just started asking a bunch of questions and learned a few really cool things, like my great grandfather was german (my mother's father's father.) So really I'm german. Who knew? and all along i was making fun of the germans. okay on to cleaning and getting some order back in my life.