abril 30, 2003

today has been an interesting day, a continuation of me being a roll yesterday. For my italian final I have 2 three page compositions to do for the 12th and I already have the first draft of the one being checked by the prof, and the first page of the other one being checked, so thats exciting because it looks like I'll have both of those done and in their final drafts by next friday. I also took a stats quiz today, which was the very first quiz that I just screwed up completly bc I psyched myself out, but I retook it and so I'm thinking that now I'm pulling an A in the class, not a solid A but an A minus, which puts me in a good place for the final next friday. so that means that this weekend is being devoted to studing and writing compositions. Oh and I should probably do something for Gabe, i was thinking of writing a childrens book for understanding capitalism, I figure we'll both get a kick out of that. The thing is though, that I'm left with an entire week to just hang out and pack I guess, but mostly just hang out. soo i dont know what i'm doing with that then, bc its not like anyone is going to be having any fun since they'll have finals.

abril 29, 2003

okay today rocks! first the weather is wonderful, and i'm wearing my very cute white pants, then I've just been on a roll today: I skipped stats and showered and worked on italian, I went to a meeting with my italian professor where I thought she was gonna bite my head off but she didnt (she told me I was gifted at writing and that all that i had to do was get a concrete grasp on the grammar, oh and that i wasnt in as a grave a shape as i thought,) then I had lunch, paid my bill, and went to Gabe's class that had some amazing presentations in it (I really thought that the whole "create ur own projects" idea was just going to be awful but ppl have done amazing things, this guy sings us songs and then this other girl made a documentary film that was pretty cool,) and then I talked to Gabe and figured things out for the summer (I'm staying and he'll let me know as soon as they tell him how much i'm getting paid, oh and he's letting me pick the dates that I'm working which means I'll be home twice (!) this summer (or thats the plan at least,) and then I went to pick up my stats quiz which i rocked bc i only got 3 pnts taken off it for stupid mistakes and I checked my grade and I have a B+ in that class (once i redo one of the quizzes it should be a solid A!) and then I talked to the stats Prof for a little bit and found out that I can take the final on Friday instead of Saturday so I can leave friday night to go to Boston (yay! for "house dinners" or "casual drunken formals") but most importantly of all I got into my room and remembered it was my mommy's birthday and I called her, so really today I'm on a roll.
i'm not going to stats today (which is where i'm supposed to be now) bc that class is a waste of my time. I go in, late, and ppl are asking dumb questions, and then he goes thru the powerpoint slides which I can get off the site, so why should i go in and just lisen to him talk about something that I'm just going to teach myself an hr before the quiz? I think i'm just being cocky bc i aced the last quiz and i never studied for it or did any of the homework for it. but its really one of those classes were i go in and i'm like "why am i here?" or "i woke up for this?"

today will be devoted to italian, because thats something that no matter how many times i think i'm getting it right, i'm not. It could also be because I do all my compositions like an hr before their due....::sigh:: oh well. I'm meeting with my italian prof today and we'll see what happens after that.

abril 28, 2003

haha thanks to Margaret for proving me with more reasons to avoid my italian

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abril 27, 2003

i had the most wonderful fun filled day in Boston today. I left with the giant 12 seater van that was half full and drove over to MIT around 9:30 and made really good time getting there at like 11:20am, and then we spent the next 20 minutes trying to parallel park the damn thing. By "we" I mean Andy bc I dont know how to parallel park in a normal car, so i dont wanna try it in a van that huge with even bigger blind spots. Umm, and then there was the barbeque and before that I watched boys play video games, and that was just so much fun. The food was really yummy at the bbq, i had a nice thick burger and a hot dog, and then i dragged andy to Newbury st. so that I could go shopping or "hunting" as I like to think of it. There was the really cute "Getting Lucky in Kentucky" shirt at Urban Outfitters, but alas I am not from Kentucky, so I didnt buy it. The Texas shirt only said "Texas is for lovers" and I mean really, what kind of sexual slogan is that? Even the Kansas shirt was better than that, it said "Not everything in Kansas is flat" (its a women's shirt) and thats a good sexual slogan. I just went off on a tanget....where was I?

Oh right, so then after walking down Newbury and eating some delicious Ben and Jerry's ice cream (i had the brownie batter and the coffee on a waffle cone, yum!) we basically ran back to the house bc Andy was late for his softball game. I was insanely tired by the time we got to the astroturf field, so i ran into the student center and got a Lucky magazine and some water, and then went back to the game. Andy thinks that I wasnt paying attention bc I was looking at the magazine, but I really was, I saw Andy make a great home run and other ppl do stuff. They lost 8-5 though, but they where really strong in the end. Then we went back to the house and grabbed dinner, and then hung out until Andy's house meeting. then I waited for my girls to come back so we could head back to Moho...and the drive back was actually pretty quick, but I got lost in Chicopee and had to get back on the Mass Pike and just go thru Springfield. Ahh so tired, but such a good wonderful day.

ohhh and to make the whole day just that much sweeter I got the best message on my voice mail from Ms.Williams. So that was just like the icing on the cake. Today was just one of those wonderful perfect days where things just go right. Today was definately a good day.

abril 26, 2003

yea, so I just came back from dinner and our dinning hall was full of hot harvard boys and it was really fun just watching everyone just stare at them, because they just stood out so much. first they were men, and then they were tall and so none of us could really stop looking at them. its like when you see an accident and cant stop staring, or like watching animals mate...you know you shouldn't be looking and yet its so mesmerizing that you really just cant stop. Dinner was of course unremarkable, but at least there was entertainment. ahh the joys of going to a women's college were all of a sudden seeing men in real life becomes entertainment.

abril 25, 2003

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abril 24, 2003

i'm drained tonight, it was just a really long day considering that I put off my stats homework until the last minute and so I was up until about 5ish finishing it, I (of course) slept thru class, and then went to a counseling appointment which was intense but really helpful in helping me begin to sort things out in my head (my mom's illness and what that means, what I wanna do with my life, where my drive went, on and so forth) so after that point I looked at cars and began to get an idea of what I could afford and what I would like and mileages and stuff, and then more summer planning stuff (filling a summer housing app, writing gabe an email) and i just got back from a weekly thing i go to where we talk about race and class for 2hrs. not exactly the most joyful way to end my day, but i think i've had my fill today.

and of course when i wanna sleep ppl are being loud....oh well.
okay i'm maybe panicking a little, but i know absolutely nothing about cars and i have no idea how to shop for them , if anyone has anytips on where i should look, or how to compare cars, or what to look out for that would be most wonderful.
so i'm staying in South Hadley this summer, and at first I was unhappy about it, just not really sure if this going to be something good, but now I dont think it'll be that bad; I'll get a car and live in a dorm that has a kitchen (or an apartment somewhere but i dont know if i wanna do that) and when i cant take south hadley I'll go visit people. So I'll get to cook my own food, which makes me happy and be able to be around other ppl which is why I'm thinking that living in a dorm might be a better than living in a apartment somewhere. So yea, right now it seems good. Who knows maybe I'll become an expert kite flyer or something. Plus i'll be home for a couple of weeks, how long yet I havent decided, and then be here the rest of the time. I should make a list of places around here that I wanna go, like Canada and the Ben and Jerry's Factory. I like how my summer plans just completly changed on me without me doing anything.

abril 23, 2003

today is HP appreciation day and since we have just the best HP (hall president) we decided to go over to Denny's to treat her today when we normally have our hall committee meeting. I forget how unattractive the locals around here are and i pretty much just spend the meeting giggling at the people in there. We walk in and there's this guy eating his burger with the most prominent mullet, it was a text book mullet, that man had a lot of pride in his mullet, like there was time spent on the mullet. From that point on it only got worse, like just no words can really describe the people in there. But we had a really fun meeting, and we were just really silly and had a great time at Denny's only problem is we got back at like midnight and I still have to finish my stats homework. oh well i'll sleep when i'm dead.








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everything seems to just be solving itself lately. I want something to do for the summer thats going to be interesting and where i wont be treated like a child and Gabe offers me a research position. i want something interesting to volunteer during the summer and i see an add about a women's shelter around here thats looking for ppl for the summer. I need a car for the summer, some random girl is selling a car for $600 (i'm going to check this out to see what the deal is.) so everything is solving itself. my parents and andy agree that i should just take the job bc its something that i'm going to learn from and that i'm going to get paid for. they all agree though it comes down to how much i'll be paided. although but my parents say they help me out, which is really nice to have. i guess i'll just find a hobby or something to keep me busy and not bored. i dont know, i'm too tired to think at this point. too tired.

abril 22, 2003

it looks like i'm going to be living in South Hadley this summer researching for Gabe. Its all dependent on practical things like where am i going to live, how am i going to get around, how much i'm going to be paid, etc. at this point this is a really nice thing to do during the summer and its the only solid offer that i have for the summer, but this is south hadley we're talking about and its not like theres too much going on here during the school yr, let alone during the summer...plus they dont have airconditioning here...i dont know, i would be getting paid to do something that i would do just for free basically...i just hope i come out of the summer ahead. i talked to my daddy and he said that if i wanted to buy like a cheap car then we could do that, so that i could go get food since the closest grocery store is literally a mile away. i dont know. although andy is going to be in boston and so is Ev and i think lusty brent is even going to be in the boston area...so theres that. just on a day to day basis it would be me, and gabe, and whomever else stays on campus (anyone?), and the squirrels. dont know. dont know.

oh its Jose Serpas' Birthday today! he's all of 19 today! happy birthday jose!

abril 21, 2003

my mom bought me this great black dress for the last formal of the yr, and its just a beautiful black dress. theres just something about dresses that when i put them on i just feel like i own the world, like i could do just do anything, rule a small country, take over the world, run a large corporation, all while looking ravishing. they make me feel just amazing, and so my mom is wonderful bc i can send her on a random quest to buy me a dress and of course she picks out something perfect for me. i didnt want to buy anything up here bc the clothes here just dont appeal to me, theres just something about the clothes in Houston, or the way ppl dress there that is so much more alive, flirtatious, attractive, beautiful, etc. i really dont know why i'm studying economics when the real thing that makes me giddy like a little girl is clothes and shoes...oh i love shoes....i actually think this dress would look better with a different pair of black shoes...maybe more of a stiletto heel, a little higher, with tiner straps. very simple, classic, and deathly. (yea i have gorgeous images of shoes running thru my head now)

oh and this weekend was just filled with good food (another great love), i figured since andy was coming over i should be a good host and treat him to some good food, so on friday night we went out to a good sushi place and had great sushi, then on saturday we went out to chinese and had just the best chinese dinner (all my favorites: wonton soup, egg rolls, and happy family) and then today since i had the van and was learning how to drive it, we went to springfield and ate at On the Border, which is a chain of Mexican/tex-mexish type food, it was sooo yummy i dont really care that its not authentic, and we ate too much and were late to getting the van back...but the food was soooo good.

andy's visit was the same as always, so good and yet just filled with silly bickering/fighing/being childish...but i think even as it was it went really well. i feel like when you've been dating someone for a yr and the beginning of the 8th month, you take the good with the bad and just remind urself to stop being so stubborn and childish and just apologize for not sharing the stupid game...(sorry about that pumpkin)

geez this semester is almost over and i dont feel like i ever really opened the books, eh. next semester I'll go back to the way things always are with me taking 5 classes and worrying about getting enough research done. in the meantime i'm going to enjoy the warmish weather (we're in the 60's y'all!) and try to figure out some concrete plans for the summer.

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abril 18, 2003

a most interesting week this has been indeed, I watched a highly disturbing Italian movie that was sold to us as a "comedy" like very slapstick, funny, stuff and of course what it turn out to be? the complete opposite of that. The funniest part in the entire movie was when this womans husband was run over by two cars (it looked like a cartoon) the rest of the movie, Le Fate Ignoranti (Ignorant Fairies), was basically watching this woman grieve and then on top of losing her husband finding out that he had a 7 yr affair [pause] with a man. yea funny times indeed. Like halfway thru the movie I just started crying bc this poor woman who was truly in love with this man who she had been married to for 15yrs, finds out that he's having an affair and then she has to figure out if her husband ever loved her at all, and why she would lie to her when the other man knew all along about her. But of course for good measure theres a friend who's dying of AIDS and she takes care of him, and a transvestite who hasn't told her family about her change into a woman, and various other interesting characters thrown in. If it hadn't been sold to me as a comedy I probably would have enjoyed this movie, but once the gay threesome was thrown in the middle of the film, I didn't really know why I was watching this film.

and thrusday i slept thru my last class of the week bc I had stayed up till around 4 finishing the homework, but I turned it in late, and I ran errands all day thrusday like checking my mail obsessively. and thats about it, i'm just getting ready for andy to come in tonight and i'm so very excited about that, and thats pretty much it. this semester is so close to being done, i'm almost home. almost.

abril 17, 2003

I found this highly amusing so I figured I would include it as a public service announcement.

Subject: WORDS WOMEN USE
WORDS WOMEN USE

FINE: This is the word women use to end an argument when they feel they are right and you need to shut up. Never use "fine" to describe how a woman looks - this will cause you to have one of those arguments.

FIVE MINUTES: This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the trash, so it's an even trade.

NOTHING: This means "something," and you should be on your toes. "Nothing" is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. "Nothing" usually signifies an argument that will last "Five Minutes" and end with "Fine".

GO AHEAD (With Raised Eyebrows): This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over "Nothing" and will end with the word "Fine".

GO AHEAD (Normal Eyebrows): This means "I give up" or "do what you want because I don't care" You will get a "Raised Eyebrow Go Ahead" in just a few minutes, followed by "Nothing" and "Fine" and she will talk to you in about "Five Minutes" when she cools off.

LOUD SIGH: This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot at that moment, and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing".

SOFT SIGH: Again, not a word, but a non-verbal statement. "Soft Sighs" mean that she is content. Your best bet is to not move or breathe, and she will stay content.

THAT'S OKAY: This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before paying you back for whatever it is that you have done. "That's Okay" is often used with the word "Fine" and in conjunction with a "Raised Eyebrow."

GO AHEAD: At some point in the near future, you are going to be in some mighty big trouble.

PLEASE DO: This is not a statement, it is an offer. A woman is giving you the chance to come up with whatever excuse or reason you have for doing whatever it is that you have done. You have a fair chance with the truth, so be careful and you shouldn't get a "That's Okay".

THANKS: A woman is thanking you. Do not faint. Just say you're welcome.

THANKS A LOT: This is much different from "Thanks." A woman will say, "Thanks A Lot" when she is really ticked off at you. It signifies that you have offended her in some callous way, and will be followed by the "Loud Sigh." Be careful not to ask what is wrong after the "Loud Sigh," as she will only tell you "Nothing".

Send this to the men you know to warn them about future arguments they can avoid if they remember the terminology. And send it to your women friends to give them a good laugh.

abril 15, 2003

Its been a really interesting week, but the weather has been wonderful and amazing so I've been feeling superb. I got to wear my cute little green skirt today, and I had class outside and it hit 81 degrees! woohoo! now thats what I need to be a productive and happy jes, and we all want a happy jes. So I made my schedule for next semester and its hard core but not insane. I'll be taking 6 classes and 2 gym classes (yea it sounds more intense/impressive than it is) to begin with I'll be taking italian pass/fail and its not too much effort to pass, and 2 classes that only meet once a week. Plus my independent which doesnt have a set class time, and my gyms are yoga (which is only half the semester) and begining scuba diving which meets once a week. so yea, i'm excited about next semester bc its going to be all Gabe all the time, and I'll have fun, bc i'm a great big dork. ohhh and i managed to talk to both my academic dean and my old ws prof and i was just on top of everything that needed to be filled in today.

ummm as far as next yrs living situation, the ppl on my floor so far seem cool, not too odd or anything, mostly seniors, then juniors, and i have no sophmores. and my hall committee seems good.

did i mention the weather was gorgeous today? bc it was, and just everyone was in a great mood and thats just whats needed to have things work well for me. i still have some italian to work on and a quiz to study for, but it just seems like things are getting better. it was really about time.

abril 14, 2003

my weekend was completly controlled and owned by preview students (we call them perspectives or prospies) and at first i was a little bitter about it bc when u have ur own single u get kinda territotial about ur space, but i got two ultra sweet girls who were both just so giddy and excited about everything that i couldnt help myself. seeing the school again thru their eyes kind of energized me and made me see it that way again, and realize just how quickly my time here has just flown by, next yr when they come in I'm going to be a junior, thats just amazing and i'm super excited about next yr and my classes and just everything.

theres just so many little things about this weekend that were amusing i dont know what to start with....well one of my prospies spent like 2 hrs (i think its more like 3 but i'll be generous) getting ready yesterday, like it was just amazing bc i cant think of 2hrs worth of stuff that i would do with myself just on a normal morning, like my routine has become 10minutes if that before i go to class. so thats just amazing to me.

oh and they thought they would see more lesbians, that just cracks me up. i was talking to one of my friends whos now an ex-SA since she didnt reapply for next yr, and we were just joking around how if ur roomate being a lesbian is the biggest problem you have with her, be thankful bc it could just be so much worse. i think i'll bring that up during orientation when i'm leading a group of firsties, see how they like that reality.

but yea, all in all i got little sleep this weekend, but i feel good about it so its okay.

abril 11, 2003

today was an interesting day. Without even getting out of bed I talked to andy (or at least I think it was andy, i was half asleep i dont really know), my mommy, and alesh. My phone has been ringing a lot these last two days, which is odd bc no one (except andy) ever calls me. so that was excitement. of course I also receieved a call from some girl who was looking for "nana" and she called twice and woke me up, which i didnt like so much. i was trying to sleep in today, since its becoming increasingly hard for me to go to sleep this last week, but for some reason whenever I want to do that I hear the exact same people in the hallway (and this is every week) and I really want to rip their heads off, but I dont...i'm really kind sometimes. i might mention it to them in a passive aggressive way later on though....

oh i think i mentioned jazzing up this site yesterday, i may not have and just thought that i did, but I'm considering following in my bro's footsteps and buying my own site and moving on beyond blogspot.....but i think my blog would require more from me if i did that, like some kind of theme, or regular audience, or direction, or style. but good things would come from it too....so i dont know.

also lasu has a job with Halliburton (congrats lasu!) but it made me realize that i'm not ever going to get a job like that, i just couldnt work for them (moral reasons basically) and wont ever end up working for a company like that which is sad bc i'm not going to make 15/hr during the summer with a company, its just not going to happen...so that little realization made me sad last night.

abril 10, 2003

i'm highly disturbed that the most common search result for ppl to get to my site is something about fucking jessica rabbit, like "Jessica Rabbit Fuck" or "Jessica Rabbit Punch"

i'm gonna ponder that, and why being an SA is such a helpless job really....

go and rate ur professors bc it really is a fun thing to waste ur evening with.
i cant sleep. I think i've messed up my own body schedule so much that I just cant go to bed at a decent hour anymore. Theres so much on my mind and yet its not coming out. I keep sleeping thru classes bc I wake up and wanna crawl back into bed, so I basically tell myself I'm either going to go back to bed and enjoy it or get my ass out of bed instead of doing my normal get up every ten minutes to turn off the alarm thing. So of course when I do that I just crawl back into bed and enjoy my sleep, it just seems more important to me than italian.

ppl keep gently asking me if i'm okay bc "this isn't like you jes" but maybe it is. I've been thinking about that the last couple of days, maybe my Abad genes can only take me so far, we're all so full of promise and brilliance and then we only get so far. Like me and my brother both went to the same high school and started out in the top ten and then by the time senior yr rolled around we both had classes that had a high possibility that we weren't going to pass. Like the start of the race is really good and then.....We get bored? I dont know. I cant really use the "we" cause i've never asked jon about it, but i'm going to guess that I can use the "we" bc at this point he seems especially tired of school. i'm tired of school, but its that point in the semester where no one is really giddy about school anymore, its just a matter of finishing the race.


abril 08, 2003

the more I learn the sadder I get.

I dont care if you liked what Michael Moore said at the Oscars or not, but go to his site and read what the man has to say about it himself.

If you turn on the TV you hear a lot of talking heads talking about how now that the war is on its way, that anyone who was against the war in the first place should just shut up bc its "unpatriotic" to speak against the troops. Does anyone really know what patriotism is these days? Is it waving an american flag and agreeing with idiot Bush? Democracy, true democracy not the shit we have now that ppl like to imagine is democracy, requires involvement, demands participation, not silence. Please, for whatever u believe in The Goddess, God, Allah, find out the truth about whats going on in the world. Whats going on in this war. Hell about whats going on here. This is the way protesters are being treated, here in the US, the land of freedom. At least Saddam has the decency to cut the tongues off his enemies in public.

yea, war news never makes me a happy camper.

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abril 07, 2003

yea so checking the weather in Houston is way too depressing for me, I really need to stop doing that but the current weather is just ridiculous. I just keep telling myself that I don't have to live with this weather forever, its just temporary, I'm glad I'm not from the north. I'm soooooo looking foward to summer, and i dont want to think that I'm so affected by the weather, but I seriously think that the cold just sucks all the life out of me. Like my will to do anything is just zapped away from me. I just wanna hibernate, sleep, and see andy.

but yea, summer, I dont have a job but I know that I'll be warm. I have to work this summer, bc I need a car. For my personal sanity, I just need it. Oh but I was talking to Brent about going home, bc he's not going home for the summer (the last time he was home was like a yr ago) and he was telling me that he doesnt mind not seeing his mom bc you cant be with ur parents forever, and he asked me like where I would live when I was an adult, basically trying to get me to say that I wouldnt be near my parents and I basically replied that I wanted to be as close to them as possible, and i think that I've had this conversation more than once now with different ppl but I'm getting much more attached to my parents as I get older, but I guess I just appreciate them more. I dont know.

Oh and sleeping by urself sucks. I could not go to sleep last night, and my body was exhausted and there were plenty of times that i thought "oh this is it I'm finally going to sleep" and nope nothing. But I probably ruined it by thinking that i was going to go to sleep. but yea, i just could not go to sleep. I got so used to having andy there that I couldnt go to sleep without him, which is a little odd since I see him so sporadically. but its just insanely comforting having someone next to you while you sleep.

abril 06, 2003

i spent the last 5 days in Boston, and whenever i go there its like a rollercoster, I'm really happy, I'm not so happy, I'm kinda "eh", and then theres a climax of some sort (someone says something so theres a fight or someone has too much to drink, etc), and then theres the resolving of that situation, and then theres the happy make up, and then i have to leave, or he leaves, either one. i feel so tired after going there for the last couple of days....soooo tired. probably bc i didnt go to bed until 7am ish, damn daylight savings. I went and saw Brent, which was nice bc i got to see Brent and just be around different ppl, and I saw a pretty cool little show, and then by the time I made it back to the house it was 12:35, and the sophmore party was already started and that was fun. I actually enjoyed it, even though I was only technically at the party for like an hr, but then ppl hung around in the stairwell and then someone had the bright idea to play beer die, so andy and some ppl started playing at like 5:30ish, and then andy kept losing bc his teamate sucked, and so he had 6 beers or so in the course of an hr and then well things got interesting. lets just summarize and say andy HATES losing and so he got a little mad and then someone changed a song and so he was a tad upset and there was some threatening and then i removed andy from the situation and then spent the next 2hrs getting him calmed down, showered, and then to sleep. i'm so exhausted at this point, and i havent done much of my work for this week, so yea, off to bed i go. maybe a shower and then sleep. and then another week begins.

oh but i checked the 10 day forecast and the beginning of next week will be in the 60's! so tomorrow some snow, and then a little more snow and then hopefully the snow is over and done with.

abril 01, 2003

I've been really sleepy lately, mostly bc i've been going to bed at like 4am for the last couple of nights, thats not good for trying to stay awake and doing work, but its good for having really long conversations with Andy and so yea, i have no motivation left for this semester, none. nada. i wish i had motivation but is just not there, so in the spirit of not having any motivation to do work, i'm going to Boston tomorrow and I'll be back on Sunday. Thats right I'm leaving on a Wednesday and getting back Sunday. why? bc i can. i only have one class on Thrusday and I can skip it its just a lecture, and well Andy isnt so far away from me, and he could be much farther away than he is, so theres no reason to not go and visit him. I have to be back Sunday though, bc thats when I chose my room for next yr! so much excitement, bc at the very worst, my room is going to be like 40sq.ft bigger than this one, and thats worst case. I wanna see if I can get a really nice one that has these really cool windows and is 164 sq.ft, thats basically the size of the doubles in Prospect. so woohoo! hopefully. and yea, i'm very excited about going to Boston tomorrow, i'll have to eat shrimp while i'm there bc the food here has been sucking rather hard lately.

ugh now to write 20 lines in italian. shoot me now.