i am so freaking tired. so tired. it was like 8 of clock and i was falling asleep, if ur name is the fabulous Annita Vembu ur ass needs to call me (413-493-4540) or just hurry up and move in bc i miss u, (although katherine, melissa, and i are having a marvelous time here) but yea, so i have 34 ppl on my hall. 34! thats a bunch of ppl for me to be responsible for, i'm kinda slightly, well really scared. oh and i miss the boy, who i hope is cleaning some damn toilets, bc he hasnt (to my knowledge) called me.

umm yea, training to be an SA (or RA whatever) is really interesting, i now know more about alcohol than i may ever have wanted to know. but yea, its cool. its not like i'm learning how to mix drinks or anything (which would be useful) i'm just learning how to tell if peps are alcoholics.

ohhh and the best part ( u ready?) i got as many free condoms as i wanted. not like i'm actually going to use like 30 something condoms (the walls are thin and the boy might as well be a damn saint, i was gonna say priest but we all know that doesnt really stop ppl) so yea, my feet are tired, and i wont get my computer until maybe a week from now, (sucks but its the life when u live in texas and go to school in mass)

ohhh and my bro was a saint and brought all of my stuff to me, which is above and beyond what he needed to do. love that.

the best thing about being around boys all the time is that u never really want to have children after being around them for so long. my friends are the reason i dont wanna have children any time soon, thats funny.

oh and my hair looked cute for like a day, so yea now its reality time and i have to figuare out how to work with it.

i just got 10inches of my hair cut off for an organisation called Locks of Love.I'm actually in shock right now bc my hair hasnt been this short in like 5 yrs basically. But the guy who did it was this great guy, (annita u would have loved him!), he was really sweet, and he did a great job on my hair. The weird part about all of this though, is that I had a dream that I cut my own hair off and thats actually how i woke up. It like shocked me awake. and then when he actually cut my hair off it was really odd, it was like part of me was going too...but yea, i was in shock the whole time he was doing my hair. I think i'm still in shock.

boys are silly.

okay why doesnt Andy do stuff like this? !

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if theres anything that i have learned this summer its that i dont know anything. i really dont. and the funny thing is that i surprise myself, i do things and then its like "huh" i never would have expected that. but it all works out in the end so its ok.

i've also decided that since i keep saying that i should write a book about women (like tips for men/boymen/boys/guys on how to deal/cope/live with/seduce/get laid) that i might just start a blog on it. bc all i know is, if i was a man i would have lots of women and they would all love me. so thats the idea of the day. i might just do it as like a team blog and get some other girls/women in on it to.

i almost forgot this part. i was over at charles' house last night and he was showing us a picture of Beyonce on the cover of Maxim, so i was like "let me see that" and i started flipping thru it. its like my Jane, but for men. it was pretty amusing, so amusing that i almost wanted a subscription to something that entertaining, but then i remembered that Maxim is for men/boymen/guys, and i decided that would probably not be a good idea, mostly bc i like men/boymen and not women.

right i'll get sick of this whole look eventually, but i just needed something different. so yea, if u have something good to say about the new look then let me know, if not well then u should keep it to urself

alright so i went out to kingwood to visit lasu and basically it was just so lasu wouldnt feel lonely all out in the middle of nowhere, so i went (along with Sean and Brent) and i basically watched lasu, brent, sean, and charles (i'm saying the names in my head so its only funny to me really) play video games all night long. we watched some Jackie Chan movie, and strangely enough i had a really good time just hanging out with boys (or males, men, boymen, whatever) and i realized just how much i was gonna miss it. and it made me sad. a small part of me (by small i mean like molescule) kinda wants to stay home and like go to UH and get a car, and just hang out here all the time. i think i'm actually more homesick now, than i was like last yr at this time. bc last year, i was ready to get the hell out.

but yea, on the long ass drive out to kingwood i saw a rainbow, and i tell sean and he's like "what the hell are u talking about u crazy girl" and i'm like "look a rainbow" (the voices in my head are really making this story much more interesting than it actually is)...and finally he saw it and it was just a huge ass rainbow, which was cool. i havent seen a rainbow in years, that and it was nice that brent and sean saw it so that i wouldnt feel like an idiot.

ok first off, i was just watching a gateway commercial and it was like "its the yr 2002 and there are no fying cars and no robots that do our laundry" and i just thought about it and was like "there should be some robots that do laundry, laundry cannot be that hard and as far as i know most ppl dont even enjoy it. i mean i dont have a problem with laundry (mostly cause i have enough clothes to last me a couple of months without having to do laundry), but yea, there should be laundry doing robots...

okay second, i am sooo glad that i'm a sophomore and dont have to do the whole "i'm going away to school for the first time thing" so thats cool. and also this time around, since i'm an SA (student advisor, or just RA whatever u wanna call it) i get to have all the answers, which is always exciting. i've noticed that true to my zodiac nature i do like helping ppl. well i do and i dont. i like helping some ppl waaay more than i care to help others....

ack i leave in like a week and that just kinda scares me....bc i havent planned this so far...and i havent started packing or anything!! oh well, it'll all get done.

yea so...my guilty pleasure is reading other ppl's blogs or livejournals for hours; like i go thru all the archives back to the very beginning. this is odd though bc sometimes u just start falling in love with the way ppl write and u kinda start to see things from their point of view, and its just odd bc in reality u just thought they were crazy and not really worth ur time. i seem to think that way about alot of ppl.

on a different note: i was talking to jose (or joser) and he mentioned something about going to strip clubs and getting a lapdance, and immediately i got this feeling like "wait dont u have a girlfriend." now 1) i'm not trying to get jose in trouble or something, cause i like his girlfriend (not as in i like his girlfriend, in the "i could see myself waking up next to her" kinda of way) 2)well now i forgot what 2 was.....silly memory...so moving on i just find something odd about a guy with a girl going and paying to see other women dance, but odd isnt really the right word though, it almost feels wrong, which makes me think that i'm getting old, or maybe i'm more sensitive to this stuff now...but thinking more about it now i dont have a problem with pornography or even with going into a room and seeing like hustler or something on the table but i think why this really bothered me was bc i saw it from the girl point of view (which is odd for me bc i normally dont) and immediately thought "what if andy went to a strip club" which he may have, i dont know...actually i do know, i just remembered who i'm dating again (huge sigh of relief) but this thought just bothered me and so i jokingly gave jose a hard time about it, to which he told me that we should go, which i wont do, but it was sweet of him to ask...unless they have something great there, like amazing biscuits or illegally serve alcohol to minors (which is the beginning of a completly different subject centered around my amazingly dry summer and how i really would like some yummy shots to accompany the writing of this blog...) but again i digress...umm yea...thats all i have...it just seems wrong for a guy to go a strip club while dating someone...the thought of that just bothers me....

right so, my dog pulled a Cujo on me (that movie about a dog that turned evil), i brought him over to my mom's and left him alone for 4 hrs, and he turned psychotic ripping up my moms door and her blinds, and i just lost it on him. plus he was being crazy with me, which didnt help anything. so yea, i took him back to my dad's and he was still being all pyscho with me. so i left to go back to my mom's and he started whinning and crying and so i was like u wanna leave? ok then, so i opened the door and he ran out and i shut the door on him and just left him out there, and then i called andy and vented about the damn dog and how my mom was gonna kill me, and yea, i called the spca (an animal shelter) and got directions to it and everything and i called my mom and told her i was getting rid of the damn dog and she said to wait until my father came home. so then eventually in the day i talked to anna and she was like "yea i think ur dog has problems" which i think everyone has been telling me for a while now, and so my mom and i decided to feed my dog some sleeping pills to calm him the hell down. and so far thats helped. now i'm not trying to kill my dog, so i'm giving him like a fourth of the pill, and it seems to be helping. umm yea, thats it.

i think its time to build a boat, bc this weekend has been the weekend for God is angry at us rain, and both days i've been left without electricity for a couple of hours and wondering if it was going to flood...but yea, it didnt, but the prophets have said that there will be rain all week long, so yea.

i've also decided that having a dog is like the best thing for ur ego, i dont think anyone (well minus a few boyfriends) has ever been so happy to see me. Charlie starts jumping around and generally putting on a show because i came home from the store, its great really. I've also learned that the way to work my mother into letting me keep charle at her house is to revert back to being like 5 and basically making puppy eyes and pouting. its amazing how effective that really is...i wonder if i could take over the world on this....

i like how i just forget that ppl exist outside of me, or maybe even in spite of me. i think in my world when my father leaves every morning he's just disapering and not actually going to work. which is probably why i have such a hard time asking ppl how their day was or even trying to remember to ask that. but yea, i was reading my bro's blog and he wrote like a one liner about my grandfather, and i was just surprised, like how could he have a conversation with him he's not alive anymore, and when he was we were little, but then i remembered that i was just like toddler or so and my brother was older (of course) so yea, that was interesting. its funny how the older i get the more i want to get to know the ppl that i lived my whole life with. its that whole mortality thing....you dont really have that much time so u have to make the most of it. unless ur cool and buddist and get to be reincarnated as something worthwhile, like anything above gnat or mosquito...yea...i need sleep.