i've done some major shopping this break. i am the amazing shopping godess, its my gift, really it is. i bought these amazing shoes that are perfect. they're reddish, high deadly heel, no bows no rinestones just beautiful shoes. i get so giddy and happy when i'm buying shoes. i think the only person who loves shoes more than me is my mom. hapiness is buying shoes. going shopping is happiness. sure theres the guilt of knowing where things were made, but its still happiness. like busting open a box of chocolates and eating all of them like a crazed toddler...i love chocolates.

i go back to the cold in 3 days. i cant say i'm looking foward to it. i cant even say i want to go back to school. i've never had this much fun just hanging out with my mom. but i come back with a chair, and clothes, and happy skin, and minus the wisdom teeth. ohhh and shoes that are perfection. its funny how the time just flew, and how i dont remember what i did at all this break. but i feel better. i'm dreading going back and having the happiness for life being sucked from me...silly school. i'm seriously happy now. i just feel content, like in my own skin i'm happy. ::sigh:: i'm not looking foward to next semester. although i'm looking foward to seeing jes, and yarita, and ev, and hearing all about my crazy annita and how she got malaria and survived in India...and andy i'm looking foward to seeing my andy, and brent its so odd being home without the threat of brent just showing up. other exciting things for this year are the new matrix movies, the hulk, and jim carrey having the powers of god. plus i have Y tu mamma tambien on my computer which is really cool.

my mom gets a biopsy done the day that i leave. i dont want to leave. i want to stay and laugh at my mom as she bitches about the doctors and how angry she is at the whole thing. i just find it hillarious that my mother is not sick, and they keep telling her she is and so she just gets angrier. my mother is amazing. and if she has to go thru treatment another yr i dont know how i'm going to take it. i hate cancer. i hate it.