naked and famous

I'm doing what all great thinkers do when they have a ridiculous amount of work that they need to do in an impossibly short period of time. I'm ignoring it.

School is not my friend this semester. I need a break. Like this girl.

Speaking of breaks, mystic pig thinks that I should move to Erie. I think that settles it.

The Mystic Pig
	I asked the mystic pig: Should I follow my boyfriend? and the mystic pig said: Go for it! Ask the Mystic Pig another question created by ixwin

oh and this is cute. and depressing. all at once.

i dont know where you went when you left me

My graduation gown sits in the back of my closet. Its awesome and terrifying all at the same time. It doesn't particularly help that I feel like I'm trying to do too much and don't quite know how I'm going to get all of it done. Like I have too many balls in the air and I'm trying not to drop them but I know some of them are going to have to go. Yea.

I can't sleep. Everytime I lay down I have a flood of thoughts drowing me. I've resorted to just curling up in a little ball and just hoping they'll go away. I need to just figure out how I'm going to keep myself sane this year. I dont really know though.

Its so frustrating though because things that should be easy arent. I cant register for my classes because I havent filled out a minor form, which is stupid because I've basically crammed 2 majors into my 3 years here, so why should I even worry about having a minor? ugh. and the stupid form is just sitting on the deans list and i've had the same conversation with the registrar's office at least 3 times now and they dont seem to get it.

and books cost money which i dont have. but i will have i just dont have right now. and i cant focus on anything because my brain just feels like its going to explode. and my friends are all stressed out, which makes absolutely nothing better.

and yea. i dont know how i'm going to get through this semester. but i need to figure it out soon because the time to hesitate is through. and i need to get on the ball and figure out what i'm doing. or start drinking heavily. or something.

my friends are all closet republicans.

so lasu took this quiz and I've seen it around before but never just sat down and took it to see where i stood. Basically I'm about as far left as you can go. Although will say that there were many questions where you had to say whether you agreed or disagreed with something and I knew that the reality of the situation was much more complicated. but eh. people like easy answers. So take the quiz and see where you stand.

Economic Left/Right: -8.12
Social Libertarian/Authoritarian: -6.15

"speaking of queers..."

so school has started but this school year is different for a number of different reasons like: i'm taking 3 courses off campus (hampshire, umass, and smith), i now am the happy "owner" of an adorable honda civic, and of course i'm a senior.

excitement.

its basically all randomness as I wander from one campus to another being the girl thats a little too conservative/clean for Hampshire, a little too snotty for umass, and bringing up really random points at smith. My fear is that this is going to be the semester where I turn into "that girl" that everyone hates, since she's just so excited she can't keep her mouth shut. I really cant figure Smith out since it really should be exactly the same as Mount Holyoke but I'm finding that this is the class whose readings are the most interesting, but the discussion isnt that stimulating until the Mount Holyoke block begins to raise random points. so umm yea. be jealous of my workload because really my classes rock. while other people are learning about [insert boring engineering things] i get to read about sex, politics, and current events. Mostly is all about sex.

ah i'm also learning about plants since this is the semester where i'm fullfilling my lab science requirement by taking bio.145 "A Green World" which is my one class at Mount Holyoke. and its filled with first years. delicious. i would seriously hate this class except that the prof is soo excited about plants that you cant help but really get into it. Like for example did you know that flowering plants are highly evolved and that the entire reason for that display is for sex. And the coconut is the largest seed.

so umm yea. i have a car. it rocks. plants are cool. and i'm exhausted already and its only the second week. but i love it.

* Bush is drinking again. (Which could be a good thing since when he was an alcholic he wasnt off destroying the world, he was just partying and having a good time.)
* the south is fighting the good fight again, this time with alcohol.
* Ugh. That's all i'm going to say about that.
* I'm starting to think that the kids who drop out of college are the most successful.

i am officially a senior

Today was convocation. which is one of our wonderful Mount Holyoke traditions where we welcome the incoming class while celebrating the final year of the seniors. This year it was our turn. We put on our caps and gowns, and put on some green (our class color). I basically thought I was going to bawl like a little girl the whole day. Thankfully I kept it together although I kept having these moments where I just wondered "How did we get here?"

The ceremony was indoors which was sad, but it was a great ceremony. The blessing was in multiple languages, and the faculty speech was amazing. And when we all stood up and sang our alma mater it was incredible. I love this school. More importantly though I love the women that I met along the way.

Okay as of right now I have one picture, but its in Ofoto. and I dont know how to give y'all a link. I figure if you really want to see it you'll figure it out.

its not always rainbows and butterflies

back at moho. it feels good to be back. had a little drama with the moving in process, but now my stuffs all here. its a good thing i have a fabulous boyfriend if not i would have had a major panic attack. but i didnt. so my rooms good so far. i have my lanterns up and stuff. so thats good. i just got to get my paintings up on the walls, organize my clothes, do some laundry and get rid of the weird storage place smell, and then i'll be all set.

it keeps hitting me in waves that I'm a senior and somehow i have all this responsibility now. with being in charge of a building and all. its nice but scary. as i guess all good things are in life.

i think my favorite part of being a senior is being around the people that i've surrounded myself with. who are just the most amazing women i have ever met. if theres any reason to come to moho its for that.

Convocation is tomorrow. I bought an adorable outfit for it, thats comfortable and cute and that makes me happy. which is really what matters. if i find a scanner i'll show y'all the pictures.

so much stuff floating around in my head its not even funny. so much little stuff that needs to get done. eventually. before classes start on thrusday. eek.