right so yea. I'm so looking foward to this break that its not even funny. i need a break from people. i dont know there's just so much drama and crap basically, when all i really wanna do is just study. i always hate when stuff is no longer organic between me and someone else, bc the whole time ur talking to them u just think about how easy it used to be to talk to them, and how now its so hard to just say anything to them. its like i'm walking on eggshells and i just dont wanna deal with that. i know exactly where it is that i wanna be, but there's just all of this stuff getting in my way, and why does there have to be drama, why do things have to change? i cannot wait to see the boy so all this crap will go away, and then to get to spend some time making my mind go numb with brent. i think testosterone will make things better. or at least i hope that i will.