Parents

I've been thinking about parents today, and how when I was younger there were always things that I wanted to do but my parents just wouldn't let me. Especially since my parents are notoriously protective. When I was in sixth grade I liked a boy named josh rocke. and although he wasn't the brightest he had really blue eyes and I wanted to go to the roller rink with him on a "date" or as much of a date when you can have when ur in sixth grade and your parents are still driving you around. But of course my parents wouldn't let me go by myself, probably since they didn't trust alesha (I wonder why?) and they didn't trust me. so they came along. on my "date" with josh rocke. and scarred me for life. and you know what I thank them for that. alesha's parents let her do whatever she wanted and bought her all the coolest things (she had a waterbed when she was 12, how cool is that?) and let her have birthday parties. all I got was bunk beds and being forced to go to church and not being allowed to bring home B's.

but now I'm well adjusted and alesha's well...getting a divorce and has the most adorable kid. so I'm thankful that my parents were so mean to me when I was 12, because what the hell did I know when I was 12? nothing. what did my parents know? that boys named josh rocke end up in rehab before they turn 21 and that I would get nowhere hanging out at the roller rink. my parents rock. no pun intended.

home

i find myself really wishing that i had stayed closer to home for these four years. i have so many mixed emotions about it all. i really have grown a lot by being on my own, and i've grown to appreciate my family so much more during this time. at the same time though i cant help but envy the people that i see running off to their homes whenever times get tough and wish that i could always know that i could get on a bus and go home whenever i wanted a good meal and a hug.

although i do always know that i can go to andys whenever i need to hide and be loved and that i'm very blessed to have that. i just wish that i had stayed in hiding a little longer this weekend. but oh well. you live and you learn.

i am a big dork

okay this just excites me because i'm a big nerd. but its okay because i like being a nerd.


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so i'm in boston and I should be working, but i'm not. oh well.

Boston

I am so ready for this semester to be done! Because once its over I get to go home and see my parents and my friends and eat food and be merry. Before I can get there though I just have to get through one 25 pg paper, two 15-20pg papers, and a final. yea. not a fun prospect. but it'll get done and i'll survive and write brillant papers and be done with this semester.

this weekend i'm going to boston though, and not working on any of these papers since i need to get off campus and maybe see Brent and definately see Andy. so yea, in conclusion i have a comment thread thats 30+ comments long. i win.

oh and today I learned that a penis is just simply an enlarged clitoris. so ponder that.

my dad rocks

My daddy is the best man in the entire world. I talked to him on the phone today and he just put me in the best mood since my mom had kinda stressed me out, since I told her that I could graduate early and she said that I should and that I should go work for that semester, but I dont want to go to work just yet. So I told my dad about it and he said that I should just stay that year and take chinese and french and just learn for the sake of learning, and that just made me so happy to know that I had his support. Then I told him about my new idea of joining the peace corps after I graduate and doing that for the next two years after I graduate, and I thought he wasnt going to go for the idea but he was just like "why not? if its something that you can do then you should do it." Once again reaffirming that he is just the best man on earth. ever. the end.

idiot bush

this picture just upsets me way too much this early in the morning.
and if you can't see whats wrong with the picture, look closer. or read this.

little post

This week has been interesing, with andy coming to visit and getting fun things in the mail and school winding down. I've been attempting to get more sleep so I'm going to do a quick post just so y'al know i'm still alive. its getting really cold, like 30s and it was way too windy today. I have my schedule for next semester done and for my senior year I only have 3 more classes left! woohoo! so today I decided that I want to take an art class, more languages, a photography class, and just fun things to do. and some more stuff at umass since their classes are fun. I'm incredibly looking foward to coming home and then going to Cuba, but right now I just want to see my parents and eat yummy food but the semester is almost over just 4 more weeks of class and then finals. I am so ready to be done with this semester and the classes that I'm taking since for the most part they have not been very good. Except for my women's studies class which I always learn the most useful wonderful things in, except sometimes its depressing. Oh and my cute cd drive came in the mail today, so I'm just waiting for a firewire cable to come in the mail and then i'll be all set. ok thats it.

read this:
this is just creepy

excitement

so my mommy is wonderful and bought me a very tiny laptop that is incredibly light and tiny. this is a good thing because I dont like lifting things and I don't like to carry heavy things around. With the help of Charles and my bro I picked out really cool things that my laptop needed, like a cd drive and a wireless card. excitement. oh and my daddy bought me a cute laptop bag that is sadly not a designer laptop bag but is really tiny, comfortable, and padded. so i think i'm going to make it cute and really enjoy the random gifts my parents decided to give me.

the end.

its getting cold

i looked around today and noticed that all the pretty leaves had fallen down already. i wonder when the last time i looked up was.

in other news I'm tired of the look of this place so i need suggestions on what i should do. i'm just not looking foward to playing with the links again...or the colors. but we shall see.

in other other news, i've decided that i should get a wonderful digital camera for my cuba trip since i've wanted to get one and this is a good excuse to treat myself. i deserve something nice.

and what else. i had my cuba presentation today and it went rather well in my opinion. a bunch of ppl asked questions, no one looked too bored, and i think i made all my points and it all made sense. i got a tad bit nervous, since i was scared some ppl were bored, and i hate boring ppl (since i lose interest rather quickly) but i realized that it wasnt me that just their normal expression and then i moved on. i dont know how long i talked for though...i was supposed to talk for 20minutes. so yea. that went well ppl told me they loved my presentation, so that makes me a happy girl.

better

i figured that i should post something more upbeat since the last post was not so happy. i'm feeling better though, although its odd bc not really has changed between where i am now and last thrusday i'm still in the same yam as I was in but at least i have really great friends. like super great. and a really great man who shows up on my doorstep and visits for a few hours because he nows i need him...even if i wont ask. and my parents love me which is an extra bonus.

i spent the weekend on work and sleep and then andy visited and that was really good. i felt better just not being alone. and then he left and i spent the day in the sunroom reading and working on my presentation on cuba. i feel like i know a lot about cuba which is good. i'm finishing up a paper tonight and then hopefully sleeping. we'll see how that goes.