i like being old

another very wonderful weekend. i'm back in south hadley and i'm exhausted. i just want to sleep. but this weekend was pretty laid back, on friday i read all day while andy did silly errands and was ocd with his laundry. then saturday was the formal and i drank smirnoff while everyone else had wine (i think it'll be a while before i have any wine) and then me and andy were old and stayed in while ppl went out on limos. this was my 8th formal, its pretty much lost all its luster and its more of a "yea let me put something together" type of thing. we sat up on the roof and talked and it was really nice. i like being old. now if only i had finished my corporate finance so i could just got to bed.

A most sad day

I was viciously attacked by a squirrel today and Edward Said died today, which is an incredible lost. If you don't know who he was shame on you, and you should read up on a man who was one of the most brilliant thinkers of our time.


other than that though lunch was very nice, and my fem and queer theory class is really entertaining and I'm starting to really understand it and enjoy it so much more. I think I'm really learning and growing as a person and an intellectual this semester so I'm most excited about this transition. and yea, I'm going to Boston tomorrow, which is a much welcome break.

not mountain day

its so sad. I knew it wasn't going to be mountain day and yet... I just wanted to believe that I would get the day off. especially since I stayed up way past my bedtime having waaay too much fun with ev. I'm glad I actually get to see her this year, like down the hall from me. oh but yea. I didn't study for corporate finance, that class just makes me so sad. Its not what I'm excited or even want to do with my life, I mean why would someone really want to sell their soul and work at Goldman Sachs? But yea, so I didn't study for my quiz so I'm gonna have to cram some info into my brain before I take this quiz. But at least I wont forget my calculator this time.

I keep checking and checking to see if maybe it is Mountain Day and I just didn't get called bc I have the pretty signs all made up....But sadly, it is not mountain day. Maybe it'll be next Wednesday though. I can hope.

my weekend rocked!

I had the most wonderful weekend, and I wish I was still in Boston but I'm not I'm back in south Hadley wondering why I don't live in Boston and when mountain day shall be. I want it to be next wed. bc weds are my longest days and its yara's birthday so we could all go and do something fun. lets see there was a dinner on Friday with the whole house and the food was not so good even though I love seafood, but it was fun to go back to the house in a cab and not walk and have some ice cream and just hang out before everyone got back. Then Saturday I watched the very end of jes playing volleyball and then I took a nap while andy was in a meeting and then went out to dinner with andy to this place called charlies that was just so delicious and yummy and the waiter was really nice and the place was just really nice, and then Sunday I got andy out of going to a meeting and we just hung out and andy explained evil math to me and I kept him from doing his work. then I left super early in the morning and don't remember much of anything from class, except that I just wanted to come home and sleep and not be in class, or that I really could have lived with not going to classes today and taking the day off.

oh well, I'm back and I'll be back in Boston next weekend so I don't have t miss Andy for too much longer. I wish I could just skip my movie and just sleep.

my schedule is out to kill me

every week so far is the same thing. The beginning of my week is all running around trying to stay on top of all my readings and my other fun obligations, and then all of a sudden its Thursday and I don't even know it because all the days are so long and blended together that I didn't really think I would actually get to see Thursday and then its here and I realize that I cant relax yet because the next week is already starting and all I want to do is catch my breath before I start it all over again. I'm trying to decide if I should go to Boston for the weekend and have some fun or just stay home and be productive. I really really want to see andyroo bc we've just had such a rough go at it this summer that I really want to just celebrate the fact that we've made it this long and are still together. At the same time though I know that I should stay and be responsible and do my readings, clean and organize my room (I still haven't finished unpacking), and just not add more stress into my life. But I really want to see him, although I am going to see him next weekend for the formal...I don't know. This entire week I've been pretty on top of things, and waking up early and doing my work and cleaning and just generally being responsible, I know I need a break, I just don't know if I can wait a week until that break happens.

decisions decisions

all work and no play makes jes a dull girl

Ever since I moved from my old location to my new location, I have had no free time, and when I've done fun stuff its bc I'm ignoring something important. Like I havent even had time to talk to my mom all that much, and I love talking to her. But I've been getting up pretty early, especially considering that my classes are in the afternoon, like today i dont have class until 1pm, but i'm up now bc i feel guilty for not doing all of the ridiculous reading. Its really insane the amount of stuff i've been reading. its a shame that I'm not a slacker bc if I was I wouldnt feel so bad when I cant do all the readings or all my SA duties, i just start feeling guilty and so i punish myself and stay in the library all weekend and wake up early. At least I have yoga to make me calm down, except that I thought yoga was all stretching and laying down on the ground, but its not, like yesterday I broke a sweat which I didnt think would actually happen.

So yea, maybe all this work will mean a much easier time later on, or maybe it;ll get me ready for things getting much worse as the semester gets more stressful. we'll see.

squirrels are ppl too

I just shared a moment with a squirrel. I was in the process of waking up trying to figure out why I had woken myself up so early and then I hear leaves breaking right outside my window and the same kind of crunch u would hear when someone is walking over leaves, only it was smaller. so I looked outside my window from my bed (which is 4ft off the ground) and I saw something brown outside my window, and since I didn't have my glasses it looked like a rat. but then rats don't have bushy tails so I knew I was dealing with a squirrel. I got my glasses out and sure enough it was a squirrel looking thru my window and trying to break in thru the screen. I thought about letting it in, but then I realized that might scare the squirrel and then I'd have to deal with a squirrel running loose thru my room. So I just kept staring at it and then it just stopped and looked at me, and we stayed like that for a long time. Until it decided to move higher up the building. So yea, that was my moment with the squirrel, which made waking up so early completely worthwhile.

Happy Anniversary Andyroo!

the umass vortex of doom

I woke up at 7am this morning and went on my merry way to Umass for my second attempt at taking a class there, so i get there at 9am, 15minutes early to class, and sat in the room and waited. then i waited some more, then as more people started to pass by the room, but not go into the room i was in i became very nervous that i was in the wrong classroom. so i wandered the hall looking for some sign of where my class would be. Then people starting going into the room where i had been waiting so i felt relief that i wasnt an idiot and was in the right room all along. Except that these didnt look like the type of ppl that would be taking an econ or women's studies class (it was the political economics of women) and then i saw the professor and he definetly didnt look like the kind of man that would teach a women's studies class. and he wasnt. this wasnt my class, it was biology or neuroscience or something. so i got up and left the building feeling like an idiot and got right back on the bus to go back to moho, where things make sense to me. where the pol econ of women was being held i dont know...although now i know that i wouldnt have gotten in anyways bc my professor emailed me and told me that there was an 8 person waiting list for the course.

that was my morning. this is why i dont wake up that early. but i did perform a good deed by telling hampshire kids how to get to the gym and where to buy food. so not all was wasted.

The start of a new year

Its been a really long couple of weeks, but very fun too. I've met a bunch of really cool women, and I started picking out my classes and trying to get into umass classes and I dropped some courses bc my schedule was insane. My beds also now 4ft off the ground so my illegal fridge can fit under there. I'm pretty much running on low/empty but its been so wonderful having ppl move back on campus and i feel like i'm in such a good stable place, like i'm not a firstie whos super nervous or a sophmore whose still pretty unsure of stuff, and i'm not graduating this year. I'm in a great place where I know what the deal is with school, I know my way around, i'm comfortable in my own skin and I have another yr ahead of me thats going to be as drama free and dun as possible. its a good time.

my room is a complete mess though bc I dont have enough storage space anywhere. so that sucks, but andy will come over with a little tool kit and fix it, and so thats okay too. life is good.

oh and once i have a bit more time i'll revamp the old blog to something better bc change is good and healthy.