just when you think you have had enough the gods smack u a good one. it's getting really hard to be optomistic. it was already pretty hard. i decided to stay in houston this summer, which is really good because now i feel like that's where i really need to be. i dont know how this story is going to end. and i know i'm being vague but i really dont think i wanna write about it. I cannot wait to get this year over with. just when i start to think i cant possibly go thru more stuff, i've gone down the list, i've done it, theres more. but then again there's always more isnt it?