so its official, andy's going to be in Atlanta this summer, he got an excellent job with Georgia Tech and will be bringing in mad amounts of money, so everyone should congratulate him bc thats really exciting. it also means that it'll be another loooooong summer with even more miles between us. i wish i could say "well we did it last yr so this time it'll be okay" but I dont know that, bc we almost didnt make it last summer...and that scares me. its really rough being at a place in my life where I'm being pulled in one direction (i'm starting to get the feeling that its more like a yank than a pull) and the one that i love is being pulled in an opposite direction...two paths that just cant seem to meet at any place. but maybe thats just for the best, and we dont make our own plans really, its all chance and fate and whatever else gets thrown in there. and thats sad, because i was really looking foward to having him around (well a "close" 90 something miles from me.)

and why cant the tears stop flowing when this is a good thing? this is something good.